Tuesday, July 22

Go Go Go!!!

What I love most about my job is pressure being tormented by many client.  At the end of the day, I'm happy to accomplished thing, seeing in a very different perspective. I deal with it, and everybody IMHO must deal how to overcome weaknesses. Using my weak point as my strength. 

I wanna learn more and more. 5 years being front liners to the marketing and sales been a great experience to me. Is be able to meet different personalities. Oh I love this. By pressure I will survive. 

Monday, July 21

Humble Thee

I'm watching Australia got talent and I am so so so excited to hear the contestant, just like the audiences shouting every minute. 

I really love singing, but singing is not aware of it. So I guess I gotta keep it hid within me. , well that's a secret. Shhhhhhh

I am grateful to hear different stories of life beyond camera by the contestant.   Contradicts to what I saw always on the news, bombing and killings everywhere, chaos around the world, came to the point that I have asked my self, how many good people with humble heart still exist? It always make me think that way. 

One contestant came out on the stage, with her sister, he looks like he's suffering  from skin dissease  and I don't know the name of his sickness but it's so obvious. 

The judges asked him about his condition and he said its the final stage and there is no cure for it. 

One thing I've notice that looks like he already accepted and looks brave stating that "this is life". The way he talked was such an amazing to see him, such a humble person, "but" when he started singing it blown is all away.  Wow. Just wow. 

I occurred to me that still no matter how rigid out life to the point of were standing on the edge of the Clift just trust him. Only him. There's no such hope could be found somewhere except to him. 

Reflect: As always as I do care about people always I'm so easy to get embarrassed and show it in a very "inappropriate" way, sometime to the pint that it consumed me. At work, burnout, then and only then, unless I avoid this, it will control me. But thank God, for many time he showed me his ways and chide me in a harsh way, it make rely on him more and more that still I have a good heart to change for good. My heart is not callous. 

Just a reminders to me that I must see things the way Jesus sees them. 


Sunday, July 20

Just a thought for Today.

Love, such a lovely word. For teenagers this Word played an important role, from puppy love to true love. Word that has broad wide meaning.

How many of us heard this line "I love but ____"? Or I love you "if"____"? I'm sure you're familiar. 

When I was in my high school, i used to say this with my crush, of I shoued this in a concert, or write this on a love letter. So cool, yet when I was in college this is awkward. 

Now I'm matured enough to understand this word, atleast I'll be able to show this to my family

However, until now I admit I really don't understand this I mean I'm having a hard time to understand this. "Love is perfect" 


In (1 John 4:18 ESV)

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. 

This one is a very powerful words. The revelation itself. I have many passion, things to do in ministry, but I'm afraid, and this verse reminded me that loving has not nothing to do with fear. I must admit that sometimes I'm afraid to do thing that I really love, though I know but it simply just I'm afraid. 

I have to ponder on this, reflect, how this one related to me. I just hope that I could love without fear, no "if" no "but". 

Happy weekdays to all.




Saturday, July 12

Sunday Reflection

I woke up around 11 in the morning, I rush to the bathroom. It's Sunday so I can enjoy my day here in the house. No headache for today, please spare me. Lol. Anyway, I do t like to watch the news anymore coz it's making me sick and tired to the never ending stories of bombing and killing in many part of the world. Oh God let this people realize what they're doing.

Every time I challenge my self to be a better person the harder it gets but I'm not saying that I'm a bad person in a way that I steal kill or whatsoever. I just want to have a peace of mind. I'm thinking this way for a long time. I'm trying to catch up and say "hey Al" what is your purpose in life. This question had been to me for a very long time. Am I doing right in front of Jesus? What it would be like if I am walking in the right hand of my creator, is he proud of me as his son? 

Personally, I don't think so. I love Jesus and willing to follow him but the question is this, do I have a great pure heart to follow him and willingness to give my life fully under his control? 

Right now, I don't think so. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of giving up something that I'd like to do but I know it's not right  in the eyes of my savior. 

I admitted that it's easy to say "Lord I commit my life to you" however after my emotional breakdown, nothing's changed. 

Lord right now, I know that you have a plan for me, please help me to be strong to follow you. Please protect me and guide by your Holy Spirit. I challenged you God that if you love me, you will show me your way, I know you love me more than anything in this world.

Help me to walk straight towards you. 

Happy Sunday to everyone.

Thursday, July 10

Teary Eyed. The Sad Reality Of A Broken Earth.

What's with the world today.. I'm a busy person, work from home to office vice versa, internet is my main source of communication, dealing with my client, with the company I'm and with the people I'm working with.

Sometimes I need to stop for awhile and browse some news worldwide.  I cant help my self but to have a broken heart, feels like i wanna shout to the world what wrong with the people today. environment nowadays is falling apart, the "Climate Change" is the main reason and main problem... I disagree.

People is the main reason of it, the more we make things simple the more complicated it is, the greedy of some corporation, the vanished of civilization. So where do we stand? It is sad to learned the truth, to fell the emerging power of life moving going nowhere fast... I am afraid for what is around us today. And its sad to see whats going on right now.. Are you aware? Or you just stucked inside the house eating donuts all the time? I really don't know what would it be in 2020...

Change URL, NEWS...


The rising death of civilians on the Ukraine crisis and the never ending war between Israeli people, the legalizing of Marijuana already started in some state of USA. Anyway, All I can say for now is that, I hope that Politician see what is going on right now, with all this chaos, climate change issue, political issue, i hope that is not the money that we should think on top of our head. The civil war in Syria, most of the victim are children, that suppose to be is running in a playground NOT RUNNING FOR THEIR LIVES. How many soldier right now is fighting for their country? How many? NOTHING... They are fighting other country and other races because of the Political Motivation of some Traditional Politics who want to control the entire world and be a God..Pathetic, right? The illuminati, the so called secret society is no longer a secret, they are already revealed themselves. they are into the RUSH, to control... But they cannot because of islam, because of Christian. i just hope that people will see, both Christian and Islam will see that the reason of the denomination gap are the illuminatis.

They are trying to exaggerate things to heat up by making some propaganda via media, via their puppet in the Media. They dont care how many children will die, how many soldier and many many more will die as long as its a MUST for the sake of that secret society...

I really wanted to pour out my emotion right now, I am mad as hell, sick and tired seeing this chaos worldwide right now... gtg