love...?

ilang gabi na din akong di nakakatulog... kakaiisip... miss ko na si hydee... pero wala akong magawa... last night... tumatawag ako sa kanya @ 9pm... pero walang sumasagot... I felt really bad about it co'z I missed her so much... di pa rin ako sumuko... hmmm... bawat oras nag ta-try ako na baka sakaling sagutin na nya ang tawag ko... kaya nanood ako ng movie but even though how much i try to focus on the movie still her face is haunting me... Paranoid na yata ako sa kanya... ang hirap ng malayo kayo noh?... pero ok lang yun dahil alam ko isa yun sa test sa amin relasyon... 16 mos na kame pero patuloy pa rin akong umaasa na kame na habang buhay... alam ko madame din akong pagkakamali.. pero concern din naman ako sa mga yun and Im trying to be a good person for her... Di ko namalayan na tapos na pala ang movie kaya nag dial na naman ako sa kanya... 12 na rin ng madaling araw baka sakaling masagot na nya...but the fone just keep ringing... nagsimula na akong mag worry... pero alam ko ok lang cya... ayaw kong mag isip ng iba... hay... di ko alam anu sasabihin ko di talaga ako makapag isip ano ilalalagay ko sa blogs ko ngayun...basta alam ko mahal na mahal ko xa... dito na nga muna at ng makapag kape na muna ako...

HOW??!!??

How can you start your life without the reason? do I have to persevere despite of loosing someone I loved? How??? My life is a messed now... as ussual.. blogs is my output... Just pray for me that after all this...I Can do it...

Missin you badly

Im not ok really but Im hoping but not expecting to be ok soon...lol Its just I really missed my Hydee and i can say That I can l Live without her... Sounds rediculous but I mean it... Some say Im insane or what ever call me pathetic but It just I really love hydee... Its all my fault... I must learn to trust... I do trust hydee... I just missed her so much why sometimes I was crying all by my self...

Hay... ganyan talaga nagmamahal ako eh... Sana lang dumating yung time na bumalik ka sa akin... I hate myself for this... wala kase akong output kaya ang hirap gawin ang mga bagay na dapat kong gawin at mga bagay na dapat kong tanggapin...

NUttin really important...I cant think that much...Im still confused... I really dont know what to do... I really sorry mhy... I love you so much more that you ever know..godbless you always...

Happy 16 mos...mhy

Hmmm...16 mos...

nothing important to post really,,, i'm in super pain as of now... my head hurts like hell!!! i dunno why..
its me and my gf's 16th month anniversary,,, but it just pass by like any other day... no dates, no kissing and make up... no giving gifts... oww... but i think its not really important then...lol
we've had an argument! nice way to celebrate an impt day right?!?! She forgot how many months we are!!?!well, im getting used to with that set up. maybe if we'll be able to have nice work, get settled, we'll have out anniversaries celebrated intimately and be treated as REALLY special... i almost forgot that its our monthsary.. but i reversed it and pretended to act as if im only testing her if he'll remember it first that i do... hehe... talking of white lies????!!! i can't think of anything right now.. coz my still hurts so bad... i hope i'll get over this tomorrow. gotta sleeep. buh bye!

my b3giNiNg mY f0r eVer

I love this girl... hydee is such a wonderful person to be with... malayo kame sa isat isa pero kahit na ganun ang sitwasyon...walang nakakalimot... tagal ko ng gusto i share ano nagustuhan ko dito hanggang sa mga bagy na nagpalapit sa akin sa kanya kaya till now mahal n mahal ko xa... una xa ang buhay ko... utang ko sa kanya ang buhay ko...di ko alam pano ako magpapasalamat sa pagmamahal nya sa akin...seloso ako pero nagtyaga xa sa akin...dame na kaming napag daanan neto...pero gusto ko muna xang batiin ng happy 16 mos mhy... 16 mos na tayo...wahehehe... sa chat kame nagsimula... pero cno mag aakala na dun kame magkakakilala... chat ang sumira ng buhay ko pero sa chat din pala mabubuo mga pangarap ko... anyway...trial pa lang naman tong post na toh wehhh... kakabalik ko alng kase sa chat...basta ingat ka plagi mhy...mahal na mahal kita....ikaw lang...at patuloy kitang mamahalin...

All for Love/Shout Unto God

Nice to be back...after a long time al last here I am again so share some good experience...about my life with hydee on how we dealt on all the difficulties we had encountered..but for now enjoy this music 1st.. this is the one of the most powerful song for me... bec of love jesus died and bec of love im happy having hydee as my one and only love...I will love you mhy for as long as i live...

godbless us all


All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask

And how many times have
You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You